Under the Circumstances

It is so very easy to allow problems and conflicts to govern our thinking. We devote so much of our emotional energy to dwelling on the past, things we did wrong and things others did to us to “make us this way.” It’s time to forgive everyone who ever hurt us, mistreated us, betrayed us, or simply ignored us when we were in trouble. Let’s forgive and set ourselves free from that emotional stronghold!

God never intended for our brains and our bodies to respond well to negative thinking and feeling. He designed us physiologically and psychologically to respond to positive thinking. For me, personally, the most positive thinking is this: I can experience peace and joy even when faced with crushing disappointment. I don’t need to rely on pills to feel okay. I used to. At one time I was taking lithium, Xanax, and Wellbutrin, Years later I was taking Prozac and Zyprexa, both of which I intentionally overdosed on hoping to die.

Now when things go badly for me, I recall the advice He gave me in the midst of heartbreak. “Draw near to Me, and I will draw near to you.” Satan is every bit as real as God, but he is not as powerful. The devil works very hard to convince us that he is more powerful than God, and that’s one of the reasons we struggle so with mental illness. Satan’s lies seem more true than the truth! He is the master deceiver; I know because for years he deceived me into thinking that I would never get well and never be able to get along without meds and psychotherapy. Ah, but God…

God is always there, ready and eager to help us do what we need to do to get well. And the first step, I believe, is to surrender to Him our unwillingness to forgive both ourselves and others. Self-pity reigns supreme in the hearts and minds of those who do not know God and don’t think they need Him.

I used to be so consumed with self-pity and unforgiveness that it opened the door to the Bipolar II disorder. God never intended for me to live this way, but I was allowing Satan to convince me that this was all I had to look forward to. I had resigned myself to this dismal existence. While in the psych ward I received a much-needed visit from a dear friend who prayed with me. God honored her prayer, and away went the fear and sense of hopelessness.

There is hope for all of us, and that hope is found only in Christ Jesus. Let’s turn our hearts and minds to the One who gave up His life for us. It was not taken from Him; He laid it down willingly so that we could experience the peace and joy we all so desperately crave.


About concerningtheking

Concerning the King is about proclaiming His truth as it applies to my life and my work. By sharing my experiences (peaks and valleys), I hope to encourage others to draw near to God. I live in Fremont, Nebraska, where I serve as facilitator for Fresh Hope, a faith-based support group for people struggling with mood disorders. Seven years after being diagnosed with the Bipolar Disorder, I realized that getting well and staying well was going to require more than just taking the right pills and seeing the right therapist. I was going to need a closer walk with Christ, which involved daily time in His word, prayer, and a willingness to trust Him no matter how challenging my circumstances. I have discovered that the more I trust Him, the more He gives me to trust Him for. As my spiritual muscles grow stronger, He adds more weight. Belonging to God and living my life for His glory has made a huge difference in my mental wellness. Serving on the board of directors for Care Corps Family Services and being part of their mental health task force has allowed me to bring to the table my experiences with homelessness as well as mental illness. My writing is heavily influenced by the work of redemption God has done in my life. I am eager to help people experience the same deliverance that has empowered me so that I could overcome my fear of failure. Now I'm an entrepreneur. Caring Touch Services of Fremont provides cleaning, pet sitting, and help with packing. With God all things are possible!
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